You can already sense that i will fight tooth and nail to protect what’s mine.
I am so westernised ( yes i blame all of it to that ), that if my own parents behave wrongly, i will shoot them in the head. Who says I don’t feel remorse or regret? I will – but i will do what is right.

If they want to behave like 15 year olds, i will treat them like 15 year olds. Who says whoever who brought you into this world, is higher than you. they sacrificed because of pride, because they don’t want us to fail- because it would definitely make them suffer. Therefore they have ‘discipline’ to make sure we succeed. But too bad, it’s actually not for us, but for themselves.

just like whatever hope and dreams we have for Samuel is for ourselves. My dirty confession. No point keep singing that whatever we do is for our next generation. At least I don’t feel this way, yet.

So yes, I have given enough ‘zhants’ to my parents, that I feel remorse and regret that i still give them. I still put up a brave face knowing what i know.

No – i will fight tooth and nail to protect the sovereignty and pureness of this home.
You will not pollute it with your negativity or hypocrisy. You have no position here.

How can you change? Nothing can make you change. You have the devil in you. There’s nothing external which can change you.