Though we told some family and friends that the pregnancy was fairly ‘uneventful’, I would go ahead and be honest here; it was still a roller coaster ride. Can’t imagine others who have to face multiple more problems, and I can only thank God for his mercy, and love. It’s not easy definitely.

The pregnancy period was ok, was just nervous, and did a lot of the so called “nesting”. Cleaned up the room, moved one computer to office, mopped the floor, wiped the windows panes, packed the store room, sold the A3 printer, moved the A4 printer into the storeroom. packed it again, and moved the dry cabinet in as well. moved one table into parents’ room. Cleaned the fans, mopped the entire house, wiped down the kitchen.

Fetched Yixin from office most of the time, but she took mrt to work in the morning. Took multiple trips to 2nd sister and cousin’s place to get baby’s things. So we had a lot of stuff for the baby, washed, folded, stored properly. Went to Bukit Batok to get a 2nd hand mobile bathing tub as well.

All our hopes and dreams lie with him. It’s not a surprise why some parents inject so much pressure into their children. Because when he’s out here, he’s a white piece of cloth, and we feel like we can really paint anything we like. All our hopes and dreams, everything we failed at, or failed to do, all the disappointments and rejections we struggled with – I want to protect him from it, I want to make sure he gets the best. Sounds like a recipe for a really spoilt kid. haha. No, we cannot treat him like he’s supposed to do what we failed to do. We cannot use the kid ( even though we own him ) this way. We would hope that he can be a beacon to the world, we need to raise him right.

For all the aunties out there, please stop talking shit to us or our baby to make yrselves feel better. I realise that most of the time, they talk to fill up the awkward silence, or when they dont know what else to say when cornered. Because they cannot voice their real intentions or ideas, they like to talk about the past, or predict the future to sound really intelligent, because they have successfully ( but more often than not, they didn’t ) analysed the past. Most of the time, these analysis are inaccurate, and add misunderstandings into the mix. This is because they fail to see both sides of the coins, and because of whatever shit hurt they felt in the past, they are fixated at what they think is why things happened. No matter how you try to explain to them, it’s just impossible to break down this wall of PRIDE AND PREJUDICE. They like to talk as if they know the world, and humans, and yet they feel sad that and wonder why people behave in certain ways ( usually ways that dont make them happy ). Even the slightest actions or words can cause them predict others’ intentions or feelings towards them.

Anyway the baby has a slight eye infection, not sure why. Aunties say it’s because we touched him. And apparently, after ultrasound scan, his hip is a bit dislocated, and therefore we might put double diapers to make sure his legs open wide, so that the bone can grow back to cup the ball properly. Or we might need to put a cast. or worst come to worst, he might need surgery. Not sure what to do, but it’s quite common among babies who were in a breech position. He was breech only for a few days i think.

Wife is ok, taking painkillers, can walk a bit already. Hope she has swift recovery.

We’re also discussing how much to give my parents as they will be staying with us, need to eat out, and also go buy things from wet market from the whole family.