on second thoughts, i would say, im v settled into the new role of being wifey, of being accountable to someone for my decisions, whether it’s just to buy an ice box, setting a date to meet friends, having difficulties at work, sweeping floor and ironing clothes on sunday, hanging clothes on a morning because the husband washed clothes the previous nights as he is nocturnal. 

and i feel ready to step into the next phase… to be parents. emotionally ready. 

then i think, we prob need to take some parenting courses.. first world problems? our parents nv took parenting courses right? 😛 

there’s so much to take care of, it’s  a new life we are talking abt. the responsibility is huge and decisions made are irreversible. how will a small decision, a trivial word spoken, ripple through the baby’s life? what should the baby eat?

should we hug him/her or ignore when he/she cries?

how shall we teach him/her values and discernment and God’s will and ways? 

maybe, not so ready for baby…