Grandpa leow was in hospital again, and it sank my heart.

Not sure how others felt, but i dont think we feel the same way. I never liked going to visit ppl to show that i care. To be honest, I go there to pray, and accompany the family members. darius and zoe. they’re pretty poor thing. having to be there the whole day etc. and well, i cant control a lot of things. cant advise on how sweet juice would trigger coughs, as grandpa leow has lots of phlegm, and i believe every cough is painful for the wound. Well, that’s not my dad. i cant advise.

Well, today has been a heavy day. Since 1030am, meetings the whole day. Non-stop. All in all, i have been talking for about 6 hours in total. and no resting at all.

I have been missing her for 3 weeks. i miss her smell. i miss her skin. I miss her hair. and her lips. i miss intimacy with her. and 3 weeks is a long time. So today, i thought it was a great opportunity.

but she thinks, well let’s not do it, without discussing it.

And she dashed into a shop wanting to try the dress. i misunderstood that she’ll buy it without thinking of the price. I was wrong. I have to apologize for judging and prematurely jumping to conclusion, as usual.

and during the argument, she brought up charlene, that im talking too much, it’s like a lecture etc. it doesnt make me feel good.

too many things. too many wrongs, from both parties. We also argue an old topic. About sending her home.

and in the end, i reach home at 1145. it was tiring.

I just need some love. nobody gives a shit. i need a hug. i feel lonely. all over again. not because of physical contact.

but nobody is connecting with me in this 3 weeks. ok maybe God. But my gf is not even close to me. or giving me attention which i think i deserve.

I feel alone in this supposedly minute world.

God bless me.

The picture was taken with a SE Xperia X10i. SGD 286 with 2 yr plan on singtel. Desire is 368. should i just get the desire.